Tuesday, October 8, 2013

It's the little things...

In life that make it worthwhile.  Honestly, I hate, hate, hate commercials!  But every once in a while, one really resonates with me...like the current Sprint commericals featuring Zombie.  I'm not one of those freaks that is getting ready for the zompocolypse, and have never been a zombie fan, but Sprint Zombie cracks me up.

Some of my family just don't get it, but it makes them laugh when I crack up every time he loses his ear - especially the Sprint girl's gaze as she follows the appendage to the ground and then back up to Zombie's face, all with no movement except her eyes! Hahahah, I'm cracking up now!

So, keep them coming Sprint and let me wrap, as Zombie says, my "delicious brain" around the cleverness of your marketing game plan...Laura Spencer and Matthew Patrick Davis, meet your newest fan...Thank you for bringing the 30 second break out of the hate zone into the cool, cool-cool-cool zone!

Thursday, August 29, 2013

It's Me Time...

And I'm not feeling guilty about it!  Seems I've grown and understand more of why I do the things I do and how to deal.

My kids and a certain sis are not going to like this journey because they are used to having me pick up the slack and not letting them suffer consequences, but in the end it will be better all around.  By addressing my co-dependence, I can focus on my needs instead of building resentment and acting on that, which is always ugly and only adds to the problem because i end of feeling guilty and giving others power over me.

So, no I will not rush at the end of my work day and stress about picking up my grandson in time when Mommie M is only a block or two away and not doing anything but browsing the web.  I will take 1 hour after work to take advantage of the gym at work to wind down and focus on my goal to lose some unhealthy weight.  And gripe all you want, I'm not doing or expecting anything unreasonable.

And, yes, daughter R...you are an adult and I shouldn't be all in your business all the time...so as an adult you can give me $100 bucks a month to cover your cell phone bill and car insurance! Even though you aren't making much, you can afford $100 instead of just spending all your money as you please to go out and enjoy yourself, while I cover all essential living expenses.

Sister dear, I love you...but I will not take from my family to support yours on a regular basis because you are not fiscally responsible.  I would gladly help in times of real need, but you cannot spend your money unwisely and expect me to cover your needs when you inevidably fall short each month.

I'm grateful for this insight because in the long run an emotionally healthy me benefits everyone I come in contact with...kids, you will enjoy the new me...eventually...lol.

Monday, March 4, 2013

Some days....

I feel so grateful that the clock runs faster than normal.

When I look up and find it's 11:45am, expecting to see 9:30am - I smile.  The experience repeats itself throughout the day. During the work day, the seconds are good to me.  The fast ticking clock is my friend and savior in times of crisis.  But it is not my only weapon.

A healthy outlook, in the making, when dealing with criticism is the other.  The art is to step back and embrace the helpful remarks, discarding the unjust personal attacks that only serve to fulfill the attacker's sense of power. Two quotes come to mind, one perspective and the other strength and perserverence (because criticism is a part of life that cannot be escaped).

"All good criticism should be judged the way art is. You shouldn't read it the way you read history or science." ~Leslie Fiedler


 “To avoid criticism say nothing, do nothing, be nothing.” ~Aristotle


Developing this takes time, so until I have it mastered, that big, fast-ticking clock is a cherished friend.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

I've made it...

to 2013!  This past year has been a doozy for sure...the loss of beloved family members and my health is starting to really worry me; economy hit me this year more than any other, finally felt the recession; children growing up and making their own decisions that I have no influence on any more .  It's been tough, but I've made it through to a new year with new resolutions.

My mother and aunt passed early 2012.  I miss them so much and with their passing, my mortality has been brought to the foreground.  I'm, at times, scared...I'm seeing more people my age pass away or seriously ill...heart attacks, strokes...I'm seeing my ability to get around deteriorate daily...my knees are so bad, it's hard for me to get up from the floor or walk first thing in the morning.  I seriously have to lose weight just for my health's sake.  It's funny how the scales turn...the need to look good has taken a very backseat to my health.

Finances...I seem to be going backwards! Each year, I seem to bring home less from my paycheck than the year before!  I'm slipping into proverty...will it get any better this year? I hope so.

I've been disappointed in the decisions my two youngest children have made...I tried to set good life examples, but that is not enough.  I realize that now.  Peers and society will influence their decision making if parents are not more involved in the everyday lifes of their children.  Hindsight...doens't do me any good now. 

But I have hope, faith, and love.  Thank you, mom, for passing these things to me.  I can't wait to see you again...well, I can wait...but I look forward to seeing you and Tina...Dad, Amber, Anthony...when it's time. 

I thank the Lord for each and every day my eyes open!  Thank you for hearing my prayers Lord.  Help me to focus on living a healthier lifestyle so I can live long enough to see all my children settled and happy and for me to develop loving relationships with all of my grandkids.  I want them to know and miss me when I am gone! I know I can accomplish this goal with your help and guidance. I'm so grateful for your presence in my life...the sinner in me feels such graditude, I cannot adequately express this in words.

Even though I'm worried about the choices my children are making...I know it is a part of growing up and becoming independent.  I just pray bad habits do not become lifelong...but I have sparks of hope when my youngest expresses her love for me even if we do not agree on certain things or when my 3rd born passes yet another test towards her nursing career...these are milestones that I can be proud of more than worry because she despised school through 12th grade.

It's all a work in progress, and I have much to be thankful for and happy about!