It's Me Time...

And I'm not feeling guilty about it!  Seems I've grown and understand more of why I do the things I do and how to deal.

My kids and a certain sis are not going to like this journey because they are used to having me pick up the slack and not letting them suffer consequences, but in the end it will be better all around.  By addressing my co-dependence, I can focus on my needs instead of building resentment and acting on that, which is always ugly and only adds to the problem because i end of feeling guilty and giving others power over me.

So, no I will not rush at the end of my work day and stress about picking up my grandson in time when Mommie M is only a block or two away and not doing anything but browsing the web.  I will take 1 hour after work to take advantage of the gym at work to wind down and focus on my goal to lose some unhealthy weight.  And gripe all you want, I'm not doing or expecting anything unreasonable.

And, yes, daughter R...you are an adult and I shouldn't be all in your business all the time...so as an adult you can give me $100 bucks a month to cover your cell phone bill and car insurance! Even though you aren't making much, you can afford $100 instead of just spending all your money as you please to go out and enjoy yourself, while I cover all essential living expenses.

Sister dear, I love you...but I will not take from my family to support yours on a regular basis because you are not fiscally responsible.  I would gladly help in times of real need, but you cannot spend your money unwisely and expect me to cover your needs when you inevidably fall short each month.

I'm grateful for this insight because in the long run an emotionally healthy me benefits everyone I come in contact with...kids, you will enjoy the new me...eventually...lol.